Disclaimer: Sailor Moon is copyrighted to Naoko. The song used is called "call me call me" by Cowboy Bebop. Call Me Call Me (Song-fic challenge by MK) By Eternal Angel Stargazing12@hotmail.com I close my eyes and I keep seeing things Rainbow waterfalls Sunny liquid dreams Look how the world turns for you, how flowers bloom, the sunrises and sets, and all at what? The will of your smile, the touch of your hand, the fluttering of your eyes. Sometimes I cannot help but wonder how life ever existed before you. I never thought I'd find myself in love so deeply, never thought my heart ever felt this way before. But here I am, watching you watch me, your beautiful blue eyes caressing my soul, brushing me inside out. And all I could is just melt. Confusion creeps inside me raining doubt Gotta get to you But I don't know how A simple hello passes us both, as we stand there, waiting for something to arise between us. But awkwardness gets to us. I want to get to know you, I want to get to you, but all I never find myself able to say anything other than hello. So here we are, staring intently at each other, until one of us can't take the intensity anymore, and looks away. I find myself usually the one that breaks. Call me call me Let me know it's all right Call me call me Don't you think it's 'bout time And there I would be, looking far off as you sorrowfully look down. My heart lurches, wishing, wanting, but still my voice does not work, as I watch you shuffle your feet. You would look up, your eyes glossy and sorrowful as you whisper your soft good-bye as you walk away from me. I feel my heart walk away with you. Please won't you call and Ease my mind Reasons for me to find you Peace of mind I find myself in this trance, staring at the space where you had once been, like I always do. A million things pop in my head of something I could have said. A million things linger in my mind, wondering why I didn't say it. I feel the betrayal of my soul as it meekly retreats back into its dark abyss. I cannot help but wonder if this was our destiny? Is this how things are always going to be? I feel my stomach lurch in pain. Or was this just my destiny? What can I do To get me to you But soon day turns to night, and here I am, still lingering in the middle of nowhere, constantly badgering myself over my own mistakes. The stars shine beautifully in the night, like your eyes glittering at me … But of course your eyes were always more beautiful. With a sigh, I slowly begin to walk away, reciting what I could say to you next time we meet. If we ever meet again that is… Oh god, we have to meet again. I had your number quite some time ago Back when we were young But I had to grow I think I loved you before you were even alive. The image of you made me survive. The thought of you being somewhere out there, waiting for me the way I was waiting for you – that you were longing for me, like the way I was longing for you had always made my heart drizzle with an unknown emotion that I didn't understand back then. But now I know exactly what it is. Ten thousand years I've searched it seems and now Gotta get to you Won't you tell me how I was a lost boy I was until you arrived showing me what was it to love. When I was young, they would tell me stories of a sleeping princess and a prince, and how he would awake her with his beautiful kiss, saving her from her eternal damnation. But now, I found the tale slowly reversing itself for I was the one that was asleep – practically dead before you arrived, and then you stepped into my life, wakening me from my sleep with your beautiful voice. It was because of you that I have found myself. It was because of you that I have survived. Call me call me Let me know you are there Call me call me I wanna know you still care Days go by, and still I haven't seen you. Disappointment – all apart of the insane package I wield. The pain within me shatters me, destroying everything within me. Where are you? I ask myself that too often. Do you think of me? I think of you. Can you hear me calling out to you? Telling you how much I need you? Because trust me, I need you so badly. Come on now won't you Ease my mind Reasons for me to find you Peace of mind Another trickling of days goes by – I'm still lost within this maze of thoughts. I find myself longing for things that might be impossible now – where are you? I'm lost within the wave of my own destruction, dangling at the edge of sanity, thinking back of everything I did wrong, and how I could have done it right. My head spins in it's own axis, my life falls in it's own deserted road. Everything is a mindless blob to me, and I cannot help but wonder if you feel the same way too. The bustling of the dark sky above me makes me want to laugh in irony as the rain begins to fall. So fitting for myself. What can I do To get me to you The icy pattering of the rains slowly numbs my skin, as I tightly close my eyes. I can picture you in my mind, your radiant smile, you beautiful long silky sun lightened hair, and your eyes, orbs of crystalline emotions that seem to spin me in it's web. And then I could no longer feel the rain beat against me, only the warmth that vibrated in front of me … I open my eyes to see you. Come on now won't you Ease my mind Reasons for me to find you Peace of mind "Hi," you softly say to me, you hands grabbing an umbrella as your eyes gaze at me, that beautiful wonderful gaze of yours. "Hi," I hear myself respond, my eyes unbelieving of what I see. I dreamed and I longed for this day to come, and now, now that it was here I couldn't help but … My throat restricted. My mind became jell-o. And even know those long winded practices of what I could possibly say to you escape my mind. I feel like weeping, but I can't remember what it was. I couldn't help be want to laugh at the bitter irony of it all. Reasons for me to live my life Ease my mind Reasons for me to know you Peace of mind Disappointment. Once again it marrows your eyes, as you just smile at me sadly, and hand me the umbrella. "Here, for you …" And with that you turn around and walk away … The voices within me scream in agony as the umbrella then drops from my hands, as my mind knew clearly just one thing. I couldn't let you leave. "Usagi!" You freeze, turning around, the rain softly pattering against you. Your eyes look at me, hopefully? I'm not sure; I'm just too lost within my own nerves to notice anything. "Don't…leave?" What can I do To get me to you You smile at me, your eyes lighting up. "But Mamoru, we have to leave, it's raining …" The use of we from your lips caused my soul to race, as I find my mind no longer in such a state of fuzziness. "So it is, so it is…" And with that I took you within my arms.